To re-start a new life...

There is still deny of the identity...
I am Chinese... no! i am hong kong er...
I am a merchandiser, no! i am a buyer... (all these NO!)
No, I don't want to know who i am. i just want to deny all the status i have right now.

Because, worse of all in my life..
That is no recognition, no fringe benefit, no status, working in a black sea.

Though my life pattern is not repeating as last time. There is still a black shadow in my heart.
Sunshine can only be confirmed after 6 months time...as the storm is still prevailing and not gone so far.

Has the worse time past?? God knows. I just want to have decent career. No esteem is trepassed.

This is finally a naive requirement. As an ostrich sometimes is good to cleanse the noise.