痛症 - 心理還是生理

痛症本來就很苦 - 長期的折磨,久而久之, 它就會轉化為有條件反射, 我試過了…

在背包上的500毫升的水 - 對我來講太重了， 它我的背弄得疼疼的。.

有一次看到他人手上的一瓶水, 滿滿的, 我的背，突然馬上疼痛起來, 由上而下….,

當我尋找一個更有意義的工作時候, 其實我也很擔心, 是否可以找到一份穩定的工作...

現在沒有多餘的時間去找, 也沒有多餘的時間去準備.

還好, 還有一個信念 – 搞好情緒, 不被影響， 從新上路。

成功太多 - 條件反射地過分自信而不自謙；（妄言人定勝天）

失敗太多 - 條件反射地過分自卑而不自信。 （妄言福禍攸天）

保重。。

Detox the body, mind and soul

Way to detox is not that easy - this is about many things that you are unable to build up a clear list within 1 day. Here is my do-list :-

STRENGTHEN PHYSICAL BODY - by jogging and yoga (mid-strength exercise)
DETOX THE MIND - relaxation musics, meditation, hypnosis, NLP-type neuro-mind reprogramming.
DETOX THE BODY - stop eating a day per 2 weeks to let digestive system and liver have a rest.
DETOX THE SOUL - continue exploration of healthy books, news, podcasts, etc.,
STRENGTHEN THE MIND and SOUL - still seeking... (Religion? Meaningful career? Life goal?)

Lastly, the biggest enemies at all is - time and financial security.
When can I get these 2 issues overcome??

Who stir it up?

I still remember that months ago i am full of unrest. i am urgent in finding a job but as the more letters i sent out, the more non-response i get. Seems i am the trouble maker, if i don't start stirring up the ripples. Time has passed. Whether the job chooses me, it not up to me. I just try to dedicate to where my passion is. Now my mind is a bit settled. Though the core problem is still rooted, I am not as desperate as months before.

Balance of soul is that - If you choose to accept and love yourself, then you can do something good to the universe, and in turn, it will feed you (back) in a positive, constructive way.... Hope this +ve feeling rolling along..