End so soon 工作句號

This is the first job when i get back to commercial industry. I 'dreamt' I could start my new esteemed life in a newly set up company, full of potential. However, this career is far shorter than I can accept and expect. The company ceases its operation nearly without saying a word. I brought in the vendor, I worked with them and hoped to bring mutual benefits - though not finally. Luckily enough they don't blame me.

Still remember Lisa's words - 都要你受得起 - very obviously, the ailing mind is still delicate. I build my career on top of floating sand. James and Michael has really engraved something bad in my career life.. No matter how gentlemen and nice they are - this is the result - end of business with outstanding payroll and hamper my credibility to vendors.

Systems Thinking系統思維

每個現象都有它的系統。系統中有系統。

五行，看似不科學，如果看待它是一個太複雜的系統，難以用三言兩語去說明中間包含的道理，所以用一些口訣去複雜簡單化。

所以，五行不無科學，而是按現在的知識觀，未能了解。

To understand the world, that's no easy. To understand own life, it is even harder. However, identifying the underlying principle would help us to live in a more confident way. This is the approach I am using. After sorting out a better job stability, I would say most of the difficulties, at present moment, has gone.

All roads lead to Rome, 條條大道通羅馬。 Bert Hellinger's systemic constellation is similar to Chinese Karma theory;

穩定壓倒一切!!

This job originally means too much for me, as I am just fine, not great.

After several projects and workouts, I finally realize that I am also walking through a thin wire between the cliffs. Financial stability is one important point.

Anyway, try the best and get the most out of it. After all, any person is working on his behalf, not the other people else. Use this free time to learn the most.

Sub-prime, would you hoist sail please? Don't linger here for any longer....

any mistakes make big?

Fools you are who say you like to learn from your mistakes. I prefer to learn from the mistakes of others, and avoid the cost of my own.

Otto von Bismarck

Not mistake that partner worker use the working hour to fill himself up in all aspect. Sometimes we need not to be so serious in the quantity of work that have been done. Rather, retain some time to learn something more and upgrade oneself is far more important.

痛症 - 心理還是生理

痛症本來就很苦 - 長期的折磨,久而久之, 它就會轉化為有條件反射, 我試過了…

在背包上的500毫升的水 - 對我來講太重了， 它我的背弄得疼疼的。.

有一次看到他人手上的一瓶水, 滿滿的, 我的背，突然馬上疼痛起來, 由上而下….,

當我尋找一個更有意義的工作時候, 其實我也很擔心, 是否可以找到一份穩定的工作...

現在沒有多餘的時間去找, 也沒有多餘的時間去準備.

還好, 還有一個信念 – 搞好情緒, 不被影響， 從新上路。

成功太多 - 條件反射地過分自信而不自謙；（妄言人定勝天）

失敗太多 - 條件反射地過分自卑而不自信。 （妄言福禍攸天）

保重。。

Detox the body, mind and soul

Way to detox is not that easy - this is about many things that you are unable to build up a clear list within 1 day. Here is my do-list :-

STRENGTHEN PHYSICAL BODY - by jogging and yoga (mid-strength exercise)
DETOX THE MIND - relaxation musics, meditation, hypnosis, NLP-type neuro-mind reprogramming.
DETOX THE BODY - stop eating a day per 2 weeks to let digestive system and liver have a rest.
DETOX THE SOUL - continue exploration of healthy books, news, podcasts, etc.,
STRENGTHEN THE MIND and SOUL - still seeking... (Religion? Meaningful career? Life goal?)

Lastly, the biggest enemies at all is - time and financial security.
When can I get these 2 issues overcome??

Who stir it up?

I still remember that months ago i am full of unrest. i am urgent in finding a job but as the more letters i sent out, the more non-response i get. Seems i am the trouble maker, if i don't start stirring up the ripples. Time has passed. Whether the job chooses me, it not up to me. I just try to dedicate to where my passion is. Now my mind is a bit settled. Though the core problem is still rooted, I am not as desperate as months before.

Balance of soul is that - If you choose to accept and love yourself, then you can do something good to the universe, and in turn, it will feed you (back) in a positive, constructive way.... Hope this +ve feeling rolling along..