Everyday is a struggle - to live with it

All the things are endless. Everything is in a cycle. The economy as is. The horoscope as is. The Iching as is. The everyday routine as is. Most of the cycles are cyclical in upward trends.

these 5 years has been too too bad for me. I am waiting for the upward cycle.
A man who has 2 hands, but find no steering wheel to drive.
A man who has 2 legs, but find nowhere to walk.
A man who can speak well, but find no chance to talk.
A man who can see things clearly, but the mist is amidst the clearing.

The man want to break the shell, find the way out, though he can live for a certain period inside the egg. Where is the dead end that i can make a U-turn??

Will you let him this opportunity? no one can release his potential until he is at the end of the rope. It is only a matter of job thing, not racial issue.

Record Breaking Year? '寄'得比我多?

Here is a positive sad thing I would like to share:-
In year 2008, May, when my serving company folded up, I started a job surfing. This surfing event lasted about half year and closed file until I get recruited. Please note this surfing started right after sub-prime event, but well before financial tsunami:

Total no. of letters written :233
No. of jobs go interview : 13 (5.6%)
No. of letter which receive no response : 173 (74.2%)
No. of letters not sent, though they are written : 44 (18.9%)
No. of job gotten : 1 (0.4%)

The above doesn't count the government posts applied. If you can break my record, let me know!! so we can cheer – through the air!

Now 2009 I need to start another surfing again as bad luck swirling around me. I quit my job this time because – I will be forced to quit some day. Big question mark to myself – I haven’t done anything wrong, totally dedicate to work, punctual, always put company’s interest in the best interest to be safeguard, so one word – acted professionally but still not pleased the boss – am I too professional to scare him off and need to kill me??

End Of P3 - 'the worse has yet to come'.

5 months time - thought that this is a good stepping stone to shift the nature from engineering to merchandising, from China to HK base, from not knowing how to do to familiarizing the routine. However, these months being blamed every minute everyday. But the even biggest change is - poker face you will never catch why such a change.

Thanks gut that now I understand the meaning of
- the worse has yet to come;
- in the forest one must wear mask physically & mentally to keep yourself save.
Thanks for my saving glut, which allows me to live decently for few more months....

Maybe, try to learn from Zappro, always embrace change and be inspirational and passionate to every situation, no matter good or bad.

知識錦囊 - 如何取得？

十多年前，要取資料學習，途徑很窄，很痛苦，尤其在工作上遇到不懂的技術知識。。
現在嗎，電腦發展，一日千里，把人的距離拉得 “看似很遠，又似很近”。
看 似 很 遠 - 寧發 sms/email， 也不通話；
又 似 很 近 - 人隔兩地也可msn / skype 地朝夕見面。

在網海要找知識， 以下的挺有用，
Youtube.com
Uwant.com
Yahoo! 知識
Wikipedia
再加上 GooglePinYin輸入中文；就是挺好的配搭。

不過，最後都是一句話 ：口在路邊，識人好過識字。。還要認清真偽。

用心活一次 - 要知進知退

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x9ZoKZcf9o4
一首上世紀（1987）的好歌，林憶蓮，精錄佳句如下：-

“生存即使得一次，
要后退要后悔不可以，
是成敗也好，
誰能預知際遇？
只好用心活一次。”

時代巨輪不會停，就算最惡劣的境地也要從中學習，用心活一次。。
也就是說：不煙不酒不賭，愛家愛人自愛不足以構成成功， 學養學問學歷友善也不一定有上天眷顧。
話雖如此，仍然要在有生之年，可以的話， 還是 - 用心活一次。

Oh-My-God!!

Wong Tai Sin? Jesus? Follow the nature.. When you go to an unhappy cycle, just walk out, talk with somebody, find some way to increase your energy level, then regain the fighting power.

No one want to be superstitious, if he/she thinks that everything is under his/her own control power. This is worse job I have ever had. I am doing something new. Just like an engineer suddenly switch to a job of accountant. Boss is picky, fast-twitch one. Always expect an answer in 110% perfect immediately without any process happen in between.

For the past few months, I learn something very new, under a very stressful environment. Though I know it will be a fortune when I look back this incident decades later. Stressful, tearful, horrible....

勿令情志受傷，保持心藏神，脾胃健康，保持笑容，笑看人生。

各大師之成 - 張永霖，施永青

施永青 - 追求卓越沒必要，鬆散管理轉身快。把所有工作，程序極度優化（即算到‘草都無條生’），只要來一個極度市場變化就殺到措手不及。

張永霖 - 太多貪心及急不及待的人。 其實他早於08年2月節目中已經明言美國經濟已經實際上衰退，也同時解釋了accumulator的殺傷力。也力勸人勿勿勿勿沾手衍生工具。可能現他不在其位，專注教育，看事更清。

剝削上家賺盡利潤， 追求極速回報，每年以正速度追求利潤，唯利是圖，朝種樹晚界板的概念, 我早就想不通，反感兼反對。最初，我以為我太清高，不能融入俗世人做法。現在我明白我是對的。Lehman & Walmart americans /guys, I believe you will pay for it, if you don't halt your profit-taking-miximizing mindset and re-construct your morality-money balance .

沒錢是福。太多令你迷失，太少令你頭痕。雖然未頭痕，但有排都未迷失。保重。